Sometimes...

Sometimes i have to pinch myself so i can believe I'm not dreaming. These past 2 years have been the best of my life. I've learned so much about myself, my life, my friends and family. Not only have i grown in weight but i feel like ive grown as a person. My happiness no longer lies in the hands of others. I control my life now and I'm finally doing things that make me happy and not so much what others want me to do. Ya know i actually thought you had to do everything for friends to have them? I'm talking paying their bills, buying them things, paying for dinners and trips. I was such an idiot, but did you know there are actual people in the world who only want your company?! YES! haha Total different ball game. I kinda think its all a part of really growing up. I've lived on my own and supported myself since i was 18... thats 10 years and I feel like it made me a better person. I appreciate absolutely everything i have. I dont owe anyone anything. I have giving to many and helped out a lot. Do i regret it? NO WAY! I would do it all again, and I am. Treat others tha way you want to be treated. I was taught this and have lived by it my entire life. Sometimes it can bite you in the ass and you can be used but it hasnt stopped me from being a nice person. Hell i'd give my own shirt off my back if someone needed it but its b/c i choose so. No one is forcing me or manipulating me to do so and it feels sooooooooo great! These past 2 weeks have been really busy, with Ashley moving in, stuff with friends and family and work. But I like having my life filled, i have a sense of reason... if that makes any sense at all. The best part of all of this? It's about to get even better and I couldnt be happier, no really i coulnt be without exploding haha Well i've rambled enough for one night, i have a lot to do the next 2 weeks before the bash in boston. Then after that? A very unplanned summer! I do have a few road trips Ash and I are taking- Houston Las Vegas Pittsburgh Toronto Portland I dont know the order or which ones are for sure, but Im pretty damn excited! Any suggestions on where we should go? I hope everyone is doing wonderful1 <3