Note to Self

Also, I have had this song on repeat for days, i love this girl.

Oh man

Since I've gotten twitter and facebook I've been slacking here... I'm sorry! I should be sleeping since we have a 6 hour drive tomorrow but... NAAAAH lol Here are some updates. Have you seen them?!

New Roommies lol

Busy Bee

I have been neglecting this little place of mine and I feel bad about it. At the same time I don't because of why. Remember when i said life was awesome and couldn't get any better? I was wrong. I feel like everything just keep getting bigger, better, brighter. For the past couple month I've been on the search for new bigger and better place. Not that I don't love my home... I just need more, more yard, more rooms and most importantly, bigger kitchen. HA This hasn't been easy at all, I have the perfect fat house, but it's a rarity and I feel like I'm never gonna find a house like this. I don't mind stairs, I'll do them for the right house. Guess what's coming up LABOR DAY! I can't wait, i miss everyone so much. You should go, its a blast! Alright I'm really j

ust babbling, how about some photos?! lol

MARS!

YAY MARS! That was seriously an amazing emotional experience, I feel so lucky to have seen it! 2012 has been a great year.

Bizarre Magazine is out!

And it looks fantastic! Here is the opening pages and look who it is! Me and my bestie Ash!

This issue has a great spread on April Flores and in the Super Sized Section it features mainly Big Cutie Ash from ash.bigcuties.com Violet James from violetjames.com, Stu the owner of bighotbombshells.com, BSSG from clips4sale.com and of course me Kellie Kay from ssbbwkelliekay.com! I'm really happy with the way the article turned out and I'm even more happy to be beside such lovely ladies :) They all did wonderful too! If you get the issue let me know what you think! I can't beleive the amount of emails Ash and I have gotten today for different tv shows and magazines! HA! I think this one was the best choice by far. xox KK

GorgeUs Girls at the Gorge!

woohoo!

Also I'm at over a half a million page views YAAAAAY! I love you guys <3

Also GorgeUs Girls Updates annnnd My site Updates!

I think its time to update you on my other updates too! www.GorgeUsGirls.com Also my site! www.SSBBWKellieKay.com

Ashleys C4S

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New updates!

Looots of new updates to my c4s!!! YAY!

Memorial Day Bash 2012

Just a few :)

Sad...

Sad to say I'm on my way back to Ohio. I had an absolutely wonderful time in Boston. I've been to a million Bashes and this was one of the best! Lots of work to do when I get home. Not looking forward to that part haha!

I hope everyone has a wonderful day and remember those who make it possible for our wonderful free lives <3

Ps- I'm a ginger.

updates!!!

New updates at www.ssbbwkelliekay.com

Sometimes...

Sometimes i have to pinch myself so i can believe I'm not dreaming. These past 2 years have been the best of my life. I've learned so much about myself, my life, my friends and family. Not only have i grown in weight but i feel like ive grown as a person. My happiness no longer lies in the hands of others. I control my life now and I'm finally doing things that make me happy and not so much what others want me to do. Ya know i actually thought you had to do everything for friends to have them? I'm talking paying their bills, buying them things, paying for dinners and trips. I was such an idiot, but did you know there are actual people in the world who only want your company?! YES! haha Total different ball game. I kinda think its all a part of really growing up. I've lived on my own and supported myself since i was 18... thats 10 years and I feel like it made me a better person. I appreciate absolutely everything i have. I dont owe anyone anything. I have giving to many and helped out a lot. Do i regret it? NO WAY! I would do it all again, and I am. Treat others tha way you want to be treated. I was taught this and have lived by it my entire life. Sometimes it can bite you in the ass and you can be used but it hasnt stopped me from being a nice person. Hell i'd give my own shirt off my back if someone needed it but its b/c i choose so. No one is forcing me or manipulating me to do so and it feels sooooooooo great! These past 2 weeks have been really busy, with Ashley moving in, stuff with friends and family and work. But I like having my life filled, i have a sense of reason... if that makes any sense at all. The best part of all of this? It's about to get even better and I couldnt be happier, no really i coulnt be without exploding haha Well i've rambled enough for one night, i have a lot to do the next 2 weeks before the bash in boston. Then after that? A very unplanned summer! I do have a few road trips Ash and I are taking- Houston Las Vegas Pittsburgh Toronto Portland I dont know the order or which ones are for sure, but Im pretty damn excited! Any suggestions on where we should go? I hope everyone is doing wonderful1 <3

Not for who you'd think. Even Friends can break your heart...

But you didn't have to cut me off Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing And I don't even need your love But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough No you didn't have to stoop so low Have your friends collect your records and then change your number I guess that I don't need that though Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Mmmm

All I can think about is pirmanti brothers sandwiches right now. I can't focus on work for the life of me! I know in 2 weeks I'm heading back to the east coast for the memorial day bash but I'm seriously considering taking a weekend trip to Pittsburgh. I love that city. I almost moved there... Still might who knows. The aviary is my favorite place, the little shops, the inclines, the museums, the zoo and aquarium, the food... All of it is great and pretty ssbbw friendly if I do say so myself!

I need to get back to work but after writing this I'm almost 100% sure Ash and I have to head over there do a weekend trip.

...so hungry.

I leave you with this silly picture. :) no worries my ankle is better now! Lol

New site!

We know you've been waiting for some more Gorge-Us Girls videos, and now we have BIG news! We live together now, so we will be posting more content, more frequently, and we're both fatter than ever! We decided that in order to do this right we needed to have all of our videos in one place so we opened our own clips store. Plus, to make it really easy to find, we also have our own URL now! Just go to http://www.gorgeusgirls.com and see what we have to offer!

Grand Re-Opening of www.SSBBWKellieKay.com

I am oh so proud and excited to announce my brand new site is open! I now have 2 urls. My new url is www.ssbbwkellie.com but you can still get to me by going to my orignal url www.ssbbwkelliekay.com too! My very first update is a great one! Me in a tight little red dress and tall black heels. Feeling sexier and bigger than ever before! New updates along with all my older content will be on this new site. There are also fun new sections like a blog, fantasy stories, bio/stats, crushing/milkshake videos and of course pictures and HD videos! I hope you like the new site as much as I do, so much more to come! xoxox Kellie Kay www.SSBBWKellieKay.com

lol

once a cunt, always a cunt lol

Too FAT To Fit!

Too FAT To FIT! On An Airplane Recently I flew to Boston, I've gained a lot of weight since the last time i flew so i was nervous to see if i could even fit. Sure enough i was completely smashes into the seat, the back of the seat in front of me was laying against my belly! It took 2 seat belt extenders to get me to buckle up! I had to push the seat belt under my belly to fit, i lift and poke and show you my big belly and how squished i am, filling up the entire row!Thank goodness i was in a row of 3, i was able to spill out of the other 2 seats and it wasn't too bad, i was afraid that i wasnt gonna be able to get out when it was time to exit! Watch me bump and waddle through the seats then i walk up the jet way and completely fill it, no one could get past me! I'm huge! 4 and a half minutes HD xox KK www.clips4sale.com/21475

Best cookies

In the whole wide world. We love you Marty. Mmmmmmmm

I'm out way back home to Ohio!

C4S updates!

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Coming Soon!!!

One week!

Until I fly to Boston and come  home with a new roommate :) can't wait!

tweet tweet

Soooo I rejoined twitter thanks to my new well EVERYTHING thats happening, follow me? @SSBBWKellieKay annnd a little picture... I think this is hilarious, its from a new video lol

7 sets down!

Only 3 more to go lol

Having way too much fun!

Work work wooork!

3 sets, 3 vids down, 7 more to go! Lots of new content for my sites!

How's the weather?

I just felt the need to say, I love this weather! While most people say its too cold, its perfect for me :) no over heating and I can still wear my cardigans! Haha plus... Flip flops!

Where could I move that the weather is mild and stays around 60 - 70 with July getting a little warmer for swimming? If there is such a place, I'm moving haha

Big belly!

I'm getting so huge! I look pregnant haha

Xox

Thank you all for you kind and caring words, they helped more than you'll ever know! I was a hard week but I know this week will be better and so on a so forth. I miss my little kitty all the time but I'm glad she's not in pain. Time to get back to work on my new site. Also a friend and fellow ssbbw model is about to come stay at my house for a few months, I can't tell you how excited I am. I feel so lucky to have a home big enough to share with friends, I can't believe I've been here for 2 years! To be honest these last 2 years have been the best of my life. I'm happy, really happy. I think you have to go through tough times to get to the great ones. It sure does make me appreciate it all.

Here's to a great spring and a wonderful summer to come! I love you guys!

I leave you with a photo of Herman, bc its all I can find on my phone Hahaha love this little guy!

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is going to be a very hard day for me. I could use all the love and good vibes sent to me.

I know you all know how passionate i am about animals, and sadly i have to put my kitty down tomorrow. It's a hard decision to make but i know its wrong to make her suffer.

About a week before Valentines day i noticed she wasnt acting like herself, she wasnt playful and didnt seem to be eating. She had an awful smell and was drooling a lot. I took her to the vet to find out that she had kidney failure. They said some cats can live full lives on a special diet and have no issues but most of the time they need put down. i decided to give her the fight she deserves and i was sent home with a home iv fluid bag and special food for her to eat.

Slowly over the next month she regained her weight, the ulcers in her throat minimized, she could eat, play and have fun! A week ago she was 100% back to herself but then she stopped... i watched as she slowly stopped eating, stopped being her happy self an she slipped right back into where she was, i gave her an iv 2 days ago but she still hasnt eaten and she's so thin and frail, i can tell shes in pain. I refuse to put her though hell for my selfish needs and as much as i dont want to i decided that tomorrow i will let her go in peace, it's what she deserves. A little while ago she kept scratching at the back door. she hasnt been outside since she got sick, this struck me as odd. I decided i should let her say goodbye to the neighborhood kitty friends... She hasnt come back... I hope shes out having a good time...

I know this all might be silly for some of you but for those of you who have had a pet who was a part of your family you'd understand. To be honest i never thought i'd have a cat, im more of a dog person as you know, but when she found me it was a perfect match.

A month ago i thought i lost her, then a week ago i was over filled with joy that i saved her and now i sit her in a pain i cant even really put into words.

I'm so very lucky to have gotten to know this sweet little kitty, she can never be replaced. I hope she knows im fighting for her and that i love her enough to release her from this suffering...

I wish i could stop this hurt. But i understand its something i must go through.

Tomorrow is going to be a very hard day.

(pleas pardon all the spelling/grammer errors, im just in no mood to correct them and i needed to get all this out now before i turn into a big blubbering iddiot)

Why hello there!

Hi, I think it's probably a good idea to post and let you all know that i have a tracker on this blog and i can see who does what. It gives not only an IP address but other information too.

I know you want me to respond with something equally as nasty as the things you write but I wont. I'm sorry you feel the need to be this way and i hope you can find happiness in your life so that you can move forward and live your life for you. I know you're only doing it to upset me so would it help if i said it does?

I wish everyone only the best, even those who dont care for me. It's ok, I forgive you. You need to forgive yourself.

Yes.

Happy St. FATricks day!

Yes!

Thank goodness there are so many of you who are computer savvy, thanks for all the help.

So much work to do in the next month, I'm pretty excited! This summer is going to be as great if not better than last summer, I can see it already!

How is everyone doing here?

YAY!

I'm officially 28 as of 3 minutes ago and honestly I love it already. Here's to another wonderful year of life! xox

Valentines Day

Valentines day always makes me feel weird, not bc of the usual thing everyone thinks of, in fact i love those parts but because of a bad experience i had one year. No not with a guy but with a friend i had at the time.

I had a friend who was a femnazi but secretly wanted to be a girly girl but had this rough exterior who didn't want anyone to know she was just as frail as the rest of us can be. When it was close to Valentines day she asked if I could help her out. You see she had just started dating a guy for a few months and she already talked about how wrong it was for men to feel obligated to do romantic things and how she was so against it but in fact she kind of wanted to go on a date and do something special but she was afraid of what he might think of her. She asked if I would ask in a group setting what everyone was doing for that special day... what happened when i did, it nearly broke my heart and was one of the many reason for that friendship ending.

So one night when we were all together hanging out i popped the question. Everyone but they answer with the normal stuff like, nothing or dinner, then it came to him... He said how fake and wrong the holiday was and how it was a shitty hallmark day and was absolutely against it. The room was quiet for a moment then my friend spoke up... "Yea Kelly, that's just a made up fake holiday to make people feel shitty, to do something on that day just means you're buying into the whole fake money making scheme. I mean come on."

I felt like shit... here i was.. asking for her and she just made me look like an asshole... I just wanted to help her out and all it did was make me feel sick. It really made me take a long look at the friendship and really wonder what kind of person she was to throw me under the bus to make herself look better... and this was only one of the many times she did something like that too...

Now on to what i REALLY feel about the holiday.

It's nice. I mean, why not? You don't NEED to do something on that day but it doesn't hurt to do something special for your loved ones. It doesn't have to be a romantic thing either, Every year my dad busy me and my sister big boxes of chocolates and cards and we usually have dinner together. Nothing fancy just being together.

Have i ever had a romantic valentines day? no, but maybe one day I will and I'm ok with waiting for it. But i wouldn't be crushed if it never happened either. I won't lie, I've always liked the idea of getting flowers and chocolates but I will be realistic about that happening too! haha I show the people i love them every chance i get, i don't need a special day to do it but i love doing something extra special. This year I'm doing some arts and crafts things with my nieces and nephews, it'll be great and i'm sending flowers to a few single friends who i know are feeling lonely this year. And that's ok. Being sad is ok, being happy is ok. Just don't be mad. It's just another day, make the best of it :)

Another group shot from new years

Feeling cute!

I just felt cute today.

Home!

Finally home and back on a normal schedule! I'll be taking a break from traveling for a couple months I think. I'm saving up to get myself a better computer, I'm hoping for a MAC lol I've been working on new material for my sites, including more stuff with my skinny girlfriend. Have any suggestions? We always have such a blast. Well time to get ready, I'm going out to a party tonight, first one in... Years! Bashes don't count bc ill be the only fat girl there!

Here a few pics from a set I took today. I love winter!

I hope everyone's doing great!

$#%&@!

Seriously... Fuck today. I'm so aggravated I can't even begin to write about it...

Fucking Fuck.

Leeeeeaving on a jet plane!

First time flying in almost 300 pounds! Wish me luck, it was hard at 300 wonder what 600 will be like!

This airport is almost empty!

Just a feeeew more!

Did I mention I got a Bacon mustache tattoo? Hahahaha