Thursday, April 22, 2010
Internet vacation FTW!
I know there are a lot of rumors going around about me, some saying im retiring, or that i'm sick or that something horrible has happened to me but in fact the rumors are just that, rumors and very false ones at that.
A few weeks ago i came to the sad realization i was no longer myself and i was constantly putting myself last and getting hurt, either financially or emotionally.
The more time i spent at home and on the internet the more negative i felt my life was becoming. Ive never been one to sit inside all day, living life on the internet instead of going out and living life. The more i sat in that environment the more negative i became. Once i removed myself from it my whole perspective has changed as has the way i feel.
I'm not trying to say that you shouldn't spend massive amounts of time online b/c for some people, it is their life and it makes them happy. Not me. I am an outdoorsy kind of person, i need to be out and about, not sitting in home wasting my life. I have a family who loves me and want me around. It feels good too. They enjoy my company, they appreciate me for who i am.
After i removed myself from facebook and twitter i almost instantly felt a relief i havent felt in over 6 months! No more sitting there witnessing the maliciousness of people, the cattyness i was so strongly against i was starting to become. The only reason people pick apart others is to feel better about themselves, and i dont need that kind of negativity in my life, so i left it.
This is a freedom i havent had in a while, i can talk to who i like, do what i want without some how, some where getting in trouble for every little thing i do that "may" offend someone. I can finally get back to being happy and healthy Kellie.
I can honestly say this is the BEST i've felt in a long time.
I'm loving modeling again, i'm in love with my body again, even the parts i didnt love before. I'm perfect, i am what i should be, and I'm thankful for having people there to support and love me, no matter what my flaws are. I can't thank them enough.
As for the people who started the rumors? Well i feel sorry that they hate their life so much the feel the need to try to ruin mine. Little do they know, my life is in the real world, not just the internet. haha
I hope everyone is doing wonderful, as for me? I'm loving life again!
I'm always around if anyone needs me, I check my mail as often as possible.
Oh yea, i started playing basketball and i'm not half bad! haha