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Monday, December 27, 2010

camp help needed!

If i post applications for camp counselors, would you apply?

Monday, December 20, 2010

Food Coma

12 Eggs
1 Bag of Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese
4 Diced and Fried Potatoes
12 Pieces of Fried Bread (not to be confused with toast! Fried is when you butter both sides and fry the bread in a pan)
8 Big Buttery Biscuits
2 Cups of Sausage Gravy
16 Pieces of Bacon
1/2 Gallon of Milk
1/2 Gallon of OJ

The daily breakfast at Fat Camp for two.

After all this work... we're gonna need belly rubs and naps...

mmmm i love life.

Friday, December 17, 2010

A few work related things!

Ive posted a lot of updates on my site www.ssbbwkelliekay.com and my c4s but ive been so side tracked with life i havent had time to tell you about it!

Life is wonderful, full of good times, good friends, good family and good food! I love this time of year, nothing quite like snuggling with someone and eating cookies.

Here is a few samples of what i've been up too, let me know what you think!


Sorry I've been around to update on things, but i will asap. Right now i'm on my way to Cleveland to pick up my girlfriend Juicy! You'll be seeing a lot more of us...

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful day with their loved ones.

I'm not just thankful today but I am everyday for my loving and supporting friends and family, my sweet and caring fans, my dream jobs, my beautiful home and my precious furkids.

I'm thankful I'm in a better place than I was last year. I'm happier, healthier and a whole lot bigger too!

Thank you for all your love and support!



Monday, October 25, 2010

Good friends...

Good times... I'm sad she's leaving tomorrow.... buuuuut....

She's coming back in 3 weeks! WOOHOOO

It's safe to say we're addicted to each other... lol

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Only the first...

of much much much more to come....

Friday, October 22, 2010

She's only been here for 12 hours and we've already broken my furniture. Fail... Sexy fail.

Half ton of awesome.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Busy Bee

1 more day until Jackie is here! Then we are off to pittsburgh to see friends, shoot sets and of course, have fun!

Remember how i told you i've started photography? Here is a photo of one of the girls i loooove to photograph, its funny to think not so long ago i weighed as much as here, what a difference a few years make! ha There will be many sets to come with her and a few other gals in them with me.

I hope everyone is wonderful!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

8 days!

Until Jackie comes to visit for the most fantastical fun fat filled weekend ever!

I can't seem to contain my excitement here! lol

I cammed for a few hours on www.allbbwcams.com today and yesterday, it was pretty fun, but tonight im camming with my sweetheart, we're supposed to be planning out trip but instead we're making faces and talking about all the food we're gonna eat while we're in Pittsburgh. haha


Monday, October 11, 2010

Mini Vaca 2 with Juicy Jackie!

I'm back up north in my home sweet home! I missed my fur babies soooo much! But i had a wonderful time and I plan on moving back in a couple years. I still can't stop thinking about all the fun i had while i was there... I have the most amazing people in my life... how the heck did i get so lucky? lol

Here is a picture of my wares i got from my travel! YUM!

Ok back to the reason of this post.

In 11 days Juciy Jackie from juicyjacqulyn.com will be staying at my house for a mini vaca to the Fatcave and we will be spending the weekend in Pittsburgh seeing all kinds of people!

I'm sure there will be a lot of pictures to share. lol

I hope everyone is doing wonderful! xox

Saturday, October 9, 2010


I'm in Columbus this weekend, and absolutely loving it. Feels like i never left. If i could turn back time, i wouldnt have left in the first place. If I only knew then what i know now. lol

I wish i could pick up my house and bring it down here haha

Ok i gotta get back to my friends but i wanted to drop off some pictures of my babies!

I hope everyone is doing wonderful! :)

Look how much she's changed! Such a sweet and healthy girl!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Last night...


So after one of the longest weeks of my life, i got the sad news that the other people going on the road trip were not able to go, only a day before we left and at no fault of there own, which meant I couldn't go. I just can't drive all that way alone ya know? Not all is lost, I'm waiting to see if i got my "name your price" tickets for next weekend. Either way, it'll be ok, I already have plans to go in February so no matter what I'm there, just under different circumstances.

Back to the point of this blog.

After this wild and winding week I realized I needed to stop living for everyone, and live for myself. So what do you think I did?

I went out dancing. Yea, went to a club/rave/lounge. No, not my normal thing. haha I met up with my Cleveland friends and we danced. We danced all night. How might you ask? I have no idea haha I was a sweaty mess, as everyone was but I was happy and free! I did dabble in drinks, which isn't something I normally do but when people offer them, you take them. lol And well, they kept ordering me the shots that taste like dessert! So good.

This morning I got home around 4am. Completely exhausted i fell into bed, with my clothes on, haha, and slept. I slept like a ROCK and it was wonderful. I needed this, I needed to see that it's ok to take time out for myself. I don't always have to do what someone else wants me to do.

One of my biggest habits is letting people live my life for me, every time I think I get away from the problem it comes back again, but that's b/c I'm the one choosing that path. My family and friends expect nothing from me except to be me. That's all they want. They have no idea how much they helped me realize I need to change. But now that I'm on that path again, it will change everything.

Nothing is ever lost. Everything simply changes form. Remember this in the face of Life’s ever-changing circumstances.

Things do happen for a reason. I'm in a better place and I'm thankful for that. I will not forget what I went through to get here but I will forgive.

I will do better and be better, not just for myself but for the ones I love, and yes for you.


Thursday, September 16, 2010


I'm not sure what's worse. The fact you think I would do something like that. Or the fact you are telling everyone I did.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Time Flies...

So i broke down and got netflix for my wii.... Bad decision... Lost... I'm SO lost in Lost.

In two days i'm on the last episode of season 1....

Ugh I shouldnt have started this!

I've been really busy the past few weeks with packing, friends staying and all my other endevours.

At some point this week i'll be posting some new sets and vids on both my sites.

I've started a side gig with photography and it's going better than I planned. I wanna share jsut a few of the raw images I've taken. I'm pretty happy with them. I'm building up a portfolio too! I already had a webmaster i think highly of, and who's site i'm a HUGE fan of tell me she would hire me if I lived over there. Made my whole month!

Right now i'm waiting for my Van to be worked on, talk about cutting it close. lol

Ah well, i can't wait for the adventure I'm about to have with some really great people.

4 days till I start my cross country trip. Can't wait!

I hope everyone is doing great!


Friday, September 3, 2010

Have No Fear! The Hungry Heroine is Here! New Section on My Site Coming Soon!

"Fighting crime one cupcake at a time..."

I just added a video to my site about a new project I've been working on with an animator friend of mine. There will be a new section added for my Comic Strip! During the day I'm just plain ol' Kellie Kay but when trouble arises the Hungry Heroine comes to save the day! Here's a sneak peek at her voluptuous body!

Wait until you see what gives her her super powers! Trust me it's tasty to say the least!

These comics will be added to my site weekly and I will be adding live video of these comics too!

Get ready for a new adventure!

Only @ www.ssbbwkelliekay.com

You should go see her...

I love Cara, and i love reading her blog... They way she writes.... it just does something to me...

Go check it out!


Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Cross Country

Great news!

While i'm in Portland I'll be shooting with BBW Olivia and Gwendolan...

Soooo excited!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Oh i should also do my job!

I almost forgot to mention I updated my site with a new weigh in, I still can't get over how great gaining has been this past month has been!

I also updated my C4S too!

It may seem crazy, but i feel like i become more beautiful with every pound i gain... i feel so much sexier... happier, and im so lucky to get to share it with people who feel the same.
Wow i can't believe it's almost fall, my favorite time of year! Oh what a year it has been! But I'm glad everything worked out the way it did. I'm in such a better place in life now, I feel like my opportunities are endless where before I felt so weighed down.

I have a lot going on in the next month. I'm adding a new section to my website of something really special that hasn't really been done before so this will be a new adventure for all of us! I don't want to give too much away and spoil my surprise so i will leave it at this! haha

September 17th I leave for my Cross Country Road Trip, I can't wait! This should turn out to an adventure, that's for sure! lol 5,000 miles of deliciousness to boot!

We started a blog just for the trip- Click Here

I have a date with my Roselyn this week, we might be taking some new vids too, we'll see.

September is gonna be a great month!

How is everyone else doing?

Monday, August 23, 2010


Ok, no more Debbie Downer! I guess having one bad day out of 90 good ones shouldnt make me forget the good days :)

Things are really crazy for me this next month, a good friend of mine is getting married on the other side of the country. I could pay $600 to fly oooooor i could road tip with some other awesome fat girls for half that! haha This will be a road trip of a life time. I'll post a map of where we'll be in case anyone wants to get together for lunch or dinner :) Well as soon as i find it!

Here's an update for my site, hope you enjoy!

Lots of new stuff on my c4s too!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

When it rains, it pours.

This too shall pass, even if it doesn't feel like it right now.

All i want right now is a hug, and for kind words to tell me it will be ok.

Tomorrow is a new day.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Hooked on a feeling!

I just wanted to post a quick picture of me and my lady and a silly friend from my party, at this point in the party I was pretty intoxicated and had changed into my panties and a tank. I still can't believe how fun it was.

All the guests have gone, it's just me and Cara now and I honestly love having her here, I don't want her to leave!

I'm feeling so good right now, I don't want this feeling to ever stop!

Thank you!

Sunday, August 15, 2010


Right now i'm surrounded by beautiful fat girls and tons of pugs! The housewarming party was wonderful... I cant even begin to tell you how great it felt to have friends from all over the country come to see little ol me! lol I'm truly blessed!

This was a wonderful way to begin this new chapter in my life.

Thank you Universe for making everything come together! Everything in life happens for a reason, and everything always works out in the end.

I feel so free, i feel love for everyone, it feels so good to let go of the past and move forward to a better, happier, more positive place.

I couldn't have done it without all the love i have from my family, friends and fans.

Ok i'm gonna quit being cheesy and get to the smore making and board game playing! I'll upload pics once everyone is gone! <3

I hope everyone is well! xoxoxoxoxxxx

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Another Beautiful Day

Today, i feel beautiful and happy in life. I couldn't and wouldn't ask for more.

Thank you

A few shots from todays shoot. So fun!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

OhioBBW/SSBBW Burlesque Show by ME! lol

Today I was approached by someone interested in having me run a SSBBW burlesque show in Cleveland Ohio. I was really shocked and wasn't sure what to say! Now that i've had time to really think about it, i think it sounds great!

I've always been a huge fan of burlesque and have been learning it for the past few months. The idea of having a show filled with beautiful bbw and ssbbw women sounds great! I'm always looking to show the world how sensual we are and I'll start right here in Ohio!

I was wondering if there is anyone in my area that would come to see the show? (and if there are any other girls interested)

I don't have a date, i don't have all the girls yet but I wanted to see if anyone would be interested.

Let me know that you think!



Wednesday, August 4, 2010

-almost forgot

Oh and my hair is back to a more suitable color! I LOVE IT! <3

New sets!

So I'm in love... With my new studio and lighting Kit! I can not get over how much better my photos look with the setup. I felt the need to share how good this made the picture look, this is completely un edited too!

In a few days there will be 3 other models here that i get the pleasure of taking sets for! YAY! <3 ok back to work for me!


Monday, August 2, 2010


Right now I'm supposed to be painting buuuuuut I'd rather be eating cookies and watching terrible shows on TLC hahaha A little break won't hurt anyone!

Next weekend is my housewarming party, I'm so excited to have all the people i love so much under one roof for a weekend! A lot of people who havent had the chance to meet yet! It's gonna be great. Thank goodness I finally found a patio set that can seat a lot of my guests! All of which has been customized to be fatty friendly! So now i have seating for 25! Now what do i do with the rest of the 10 people who RSVP'ed?! AHHHH! I was thinking about making some floor pillows, i myself have always been a floor sitter, since i was a little kid and there was only enough room for 3 on the couch, me being the youngest got the floor. Honestly I prefer it, but i have a feeling the bigger i get the less I'll want to do that! lol The scary thing about this party is the 8 people coming from out of state who will be staying here, that's gonna be one fun sleepover! haha

So my house is pretty much finished now, minus the bedroom! I jsut can't decide what i want... I can't think of a theme I love. HELP! I think the biggest problem is that the master bedroom has a greenish tanish carpet, its neutral but i'm afraid to do the room in wine like i want... Ugh I still have a little more time to fix it up before the party, it'll come to me right?

Also I'm going to my stylist to change my look yet again, i thought i wanted to go blonde but then i saw how terrible it looked on someone that had a similar skin tone to mine, so washed out and dead, i'm now afraid of that happening to me! lol I'm going darker, something sexy with more depth to it. I can't wait to see what she does! Also i might lose the bangs, still not sure.

Oh i almost forgot to mention, i've looked into culinary schools, applied to a few, yea, i think it's time to take my passion for cooking and cooking for others to the next level! A friend I had in college has some spaces downtown for commercial use and its very affordable and he has multiple spots and locations available. i went to the bank and looked into a loan and have been talking with my financial adviser about opening a cafe for people and their pets. Yep, my life long dream! I havent started yet, i want to be fully aware of everything before i jump in, yes i took some business classes, i also did go to vet school for a hot second so i know a little bit about things, but i need to know more.

I've been shooting a lot of new sets and videos too, i love the new lighting kit and studio, i will be shooting a lot of other models too. I'll be sure to share of course!

It feels good to realize where you're going in life and knowing that opportunities are endless... This is just the beginning.

Back to work!


Monday, July 26, 2010

How about a porn update?

Well i have a fuckload of updates on my site and on my c4s, i'm really bad at advertising, i should work on that. haha

Speaking of porn-

I need help... I'm tired of the porn i have, i need something new, something different! does anyone have any suggestions?

my site

my c4s

How about a non depressing blog?

OK enough with the mushy sad stuff right now haha I hope i didn't scare everyone away.

How are you? Like... really. How are you?

Me? I don't know how to put into words how good i feel. I just can't believe where i was just a few short months ago... and here I am. I love the new place, at first i was a little worried, being alone, all this space, new town. But honestly? I love it. I'm somewhat closer to Cleveland now, and I'm still somewhat close to my family. It's a great combo and the boys love it too.

Today i got myself something, ok it was a partial gift and partial me buying it but let me tell you. It's nice to have nice things. If that makes sense.

All this moving and changing, I haven't had the chance to have something real, something nice, something worth keeping. And now? I feel like i have the perfect starter home. I'm not sure how long i want to live here but for the next couple of years, this is great.

Anyways back to what i was saying. I got myself a plasma. A 50inch one. If you know me, then you know this is a big deal. I'm not one to have anything current. And now? i do. It's weird but also exciting! The delivery guy who set it all up (as pictured) asked if he could move in. It was pretty hilarious.

Part of the reason I got this was for work actually. I've started to make DVD and I really wanted to see how they look in HD... I love it. I also go myself a proper lighting kit thanks to Craigslist! It was $180 to order but i got it for $20! Brand new never used. I almost fell over when he asked if that was too much to ask for it! haha

So here I am, stepping my game up. In life, in work, in everything.

I think I appreciate things so much more now, being through a few rough years and having to go through things... it was all what needed to happen. I think it showed me what my priorities were, it showed me to be strong, be myself and not to let anyone or anything walk over me anymore.

I'm finally in a place where I can say I'm happy and truly mean it.

Thank you, seriously, I'm thankful for every single person who has been in my life, even the ones who aren't in it anymore.

Life is just one big learning experience. I can't wait to learn more.

Here I am installing a gate for when my nieces come over! I can be handy sometimes! I can't believe the youngest is already almost 7 months and starting to walk... My first niece didn't start to walk until she was like 9 or 10 months! I love them.

Kitty Update.

Since there are a lot of people wondering how kitty is i thought i'd update about it.

When i took kitty to the vet the next morning i found out he is a she! Her fur was so matted i mistook it for balls. lol She had every test ran on her and everything came back negative! The vet did say she needed to gain at least 2 pounds, she's 6 months old and only weighs about 2 pounds, even Ella who is 3 months weighs more than that! They told me she wouldn't have lasted one more day out there. Breaks my heart, she's so sweet.

It's funny, I'm not a cat person, but when something like this just happens, you just know what you need to do. And now? I love those kitties, although my boys are my heart. I'm so thankful my house is big enough for all of us. I'm also thankful I have such well behaved kids, they make life stress free and I love them for that.

Have i named her? No, i can't seem to find what would fit her best, she looks like a Petunia to me, but I'm still not sure.

She is still super shy and frail, she only comes out at night to come cuddle, she doesnt mind the doggies but her and El pretty much despise each other haha but I hear that's pretty normal for cats.

Wow as soon as i typed that guess who came out to the living room? Yep, she came up to me, made her sad meow and did that cute little head bump for pets. What a sweetheart! But when El came over she booked it for her room, yea she's turned my office into her room! I don't mind, she fit well in there.

Everyday she grows stronger, and i could swear she seems brighter, her eyes are more open now and she holds her head higher too.

I know she's been through hell and back but with me her days will be filled with happiness.

It's bedtime for me. Thank goodness for this King sized bed, we all fit just right! I'm gonna hate the day they'll no longer be able to sleep with me, but for now i'll enjoy it!

Here's is another one of puffy Kitty, the night after i found her, she's beautiful.

Anyone have any ideas for a name?!

Friday, July 23, 2010

Still Learning...

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need
you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with
guidance and support,

To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has
come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional

Your job is to accept the lesson,

love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other
relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

Thursday, July 22, 2010

People make me sick.

Tonight it started to storm at hula hoop class so i jumped into the van with my niece and started to head home... i noticed something small and white off the side of the road... it looked like an animal so i stopped.

Sure enough it was a small, dirty kitten... he tried to stand up and made a horrible meow at me, he didnt run, he couldnt... Once i took him into the car he hardly even noticed Jack... it was like he was just about to give up on life.

You know the commercials you see for the ASPCA? That's exactly what he looks like... i can feel every bone in his tiny frail body and its clear that who ever had him, hated him.

his fur is butchered and cut up, his belly fur is matted and someone cut his whiskers off and burnt his ears...

I can't even type this without crying...

How!? i mean WHO would do something like this to a poor defenseless animal?

I'm sick at the thought of what he has went through in his short life....

I stopped at the store and got him his own dishes and litter box and food. I want to save him but i dont want to risk my sweet Eloise so i'm keeping him in the bathroom for the night and tomorrow morning i'll be taking him to the vet...

I dont care what it takes to make him better, i will do it... he's so sweet, and lovable, even after everything he's been through. He probably loved his owner and they just abused him and the threw him away as if he was nothing... but yet he's still fighting, he still loves so hard... he's still alive.

It's almost like i know what he is feeling, to love someone so much even though they use and abuse you, then throw you away... even after everything, you still only want to believe there is good there.... even when you know there isnt, you still keep living and loving, only stronger this time.

What doesnt kill you does make you stronger, i believe this with all my heart.

All i want to do is show him a better life. I hope he makes it through the night... if he does i promise to make every day until his last, wonderful.

Also one of my little El...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Sunday, July 11, 2010


So i finally named my sweet angel.

Welcome home baby Eloise!


Now back to editing sets/vids...

Saturday, July 10, 2010


i thought getting my own house would give me more time to relax... boy i was wrong, i havent had a moment to myself yet! I've been here for what, not even two weeks and already 6 guests have stayed. I love every minute of it too. Looks like i won't be alone for a few months but there is no better way to spend your summer than to be surrounded by the people you love.

Everyone is still asleep hence why i have the time to post. Thank goodness for the extra rooms, i can be in my office or living room and not wake anyone. Although i'm sure the smells coming from the kitchen will change that quick.

I really missed cooking, not only for myself but for people who appreciate it.

This just feels so right. I'm exactly where i need to be and i couldnt be happier.

i can breath again, i can live again, i can be me again.

Oh yea, ive been getting a lot of questions about my sexuality lately. Let me just say this, I feel as though you fall in love with the person, not their gender. I wont let something like that hinder me from living life to the fullest. No i am not a lesbian but i can appreciate and love a woman just as much as a man, but fuck i do love dick. Just saying'.

I hope everyone is doing great <3 I'm off to get ready for a pig roast and camp out for the weekend, good ol'fashioned Ohio weekend.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

New place, new beginings...

I've had net for a few days but can't seem to make myself use it... I'm having entirely too much fun unpacking and decorating my new place. It's dorky i know but i cant even begin to explain how great this is. I can do... what i want... when i want! It's awesome! If i wanna walk around naked i can! YES! Oh yea, Cara Cakes is here and we're just having fun hanging out! God i love this girl.

They boys are super happy here and love they're fenced in courtyard. I love that's there's 3 bedrooms! lol I snapped a few pictures with my cell phone and I thought i'd share with everyone. When you walk in to the front door you in the great room, it's a giant room with my kitchen, dining room and living room all in one and when you walk across it there's another door to the fenced in courtyard. Down the hall there are 3 bedrooms, aka a bedroom, a walkin closet/office/way too girly room and then a spare guest room. My office is the only space in the house where i'm going nuts with color. I prefer neutrals and earth tones for the most part but i also always wanted a cupcake and ice cream themed room and now that i have the space i can do that. They doorways are extra wide except for the closets, so i guess its easy to say this is a perfect fit for me! The house is basically a big rectangle. I like it, it's roomy, quite, updated and has central air... THANK GOD! It's been such a hot summer!

Yesterday while Cara and I were driving to visit my family we were stopped by this tiny little kitten in the middle of the country road! When i stopped she came running to us like, please help me! So it looks like i just added another member to my family. She still needs a name, any ideas? I couldn't be happier about it either.

This is the beginning of a beautiful life.